today... im feeling kinda depressed... but now.. im feeling better le.. y depressed??.. well.. wat else.. same old stuff.. ever since 30 feb 04 to be exact.. my life changed.. changed becoz.. got to think of alot of things which i never tot of b4.. n dun wish to think of.. but i've got to face reality.. n frm then on.. things juz keep happening.. lots of them.. mostly bad ones.. n until now.. we r still very much bothered by tat.. very soon.. it will be a yr already.. how time flies.. tat's scary.. but yet.. time doesn't seems to heal the wound.. today.. my heart sank yet again.. when i realised that no matter wat we do.. it doesn't seems to help.. the onli way is to bury sorrow with work.. haiz.. this is not going to work for the long term.. but wat can we do??.. tot of all sorts of thing.. but.. non seems feasible enough.. my heart aches to see ppl feeling so sad.. esp those super close to me.. i've been avoiding.. coz im really scared.. i duno wat 2 do.. when i see my close ones break down infront of me.. but avoiding makes me guilty too.. ok.. im contradicting... arrgg watever..

ok.. i shall update.. its the end of wk 2.. projects r starting already.. shit man.. next wk will be a damn busy wk for me.. project meetings!!... make up lessons.. briefing sessions.. talks.. watever nonsense.. but im hoping 2 save some time for myself.. so i can go my aunt hse.. n also for my 2 darling xiao meis!!.. hehe.. oh ya.. my current IS classmates.. who used to be my junior in TP.. juz msn me.. asking if im willing to go back to TP with them to share with those BIT students abt SMU SIS.. hehe.. n also one of our ex lecturer is asking us 2 help out on comm serv stuff to provide assistance for the tsunamni thingy.. hee.. sounds interesting.. maybe going back TP next wk.. yeah!.. i miss TP!.. i miss my classmates.. everything in TP.. hee.. ya.. so i agreed to help them with those stuff.. yap.. n looking forward to it..

today.. normal fri.. had lesson frm 830 all the way to 130.. n shit.. AS nearly killed me.. i dun understand wat the hell is happening.. wan noe wat r we learn today? ha.. here's it.. All cats are rats.. All rats are bats.. Therefore, all cats are bats.. Haa.. how abt tat??.. nonsensical?? well tat's wat freaking smu is teaching.. n its driving me nuts.. my brain cells r all dead.. n guess wat.. i still got a creative thinking class on mon.. more brain cells dead.. arrhh.. super sianz.. anyway.. after the stupid AS class.. i went lunch with gracey.. she brought me to some duno wat place for lunch.. haha i 4got wat's the name.. its juz somewhere near SMU.. den after tat.. went back tamp get some stuff.. wanted to go aunt hse initially.. but my mom called n ask me go back help her wash clothes.. coz she going my uncle hse.. haiz...so decided to go home instead.. felt so guilty.. din go there this wk.. make my aunt happy for nothing.. haiz.. well.. avoidance.. ahh ok.. dun wan 2 go crazy again.. hmm.. ya.. so went home n became maria.. did watever thing im supposed 2 do.. n watched tv.. n here i am.. n oh yeah.. sly n taufik coming to SMU on 24th to perform.. haha.. dunno if i can catch them.. hee.. anyway.. i think is at 7pm.. those who r their die hard fans.. may wan 2 come.. haha its smu's open hse i think.. if im not wrong.. its call the patrons day.. i think it means open hse la.. wahaha.. well im still quite new here ma.. hehe dun blame me.. anyway.. smu is open 2 public everyday.. which makes our food so damn ex!.. haiz.. hmm ok.. i gotta go do some research.. n play my game liao.. another form of avoidance.. hee..

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