im finally free 2 blog.. though i've onli stopped for like 2 days.. yesterday had my stats test.. i think it was hell... lots of stuff which i din study came out.. n some i 4got how 2 do.. wah lau.. really kai si leh... haiz... my CT presentation yesterday suxs big time too.. basically it was super impromptu.. haha coz we din really bother 2 prepare for it.. came out with our own speech juz half an hr b4 the presentation.. n i think our prof isn't very impressed with our project too.. hai.. watever la... wat's done cannot be undone le.. my CT grades have more or less been finalized le.. juz pray for at least a B... den today had BGS test again.. its another hell... super super tough... its open bk.. so how easy can it be... n the thing is 1 qns wrong 2 marks will be deducted.. kaoz.. damn stress lor... n i think i made a mess out of it.. see im dead.. really dead... how 2 pull up my gpa this sem??... dun even dare to think...
was chatting with my fren juz now.. he makes me think abt alot of stuff.. hee.. he says tat im a pessimist.. coz i tend to have negative thinkings.. but he also said tat.. despite being so pessimistic.. i managed to hide the unhappy side of me.. n wat others see is the happy go lucky me.... hmm wat he said.. suddenly make me realise tat abt myself.. maybe i've always choosen to avoid.. no matter wat happens.. avoidance is my way of solving prob.. n i noe its not rite.. but sometimes i also dunno wat can i do.. many things happened.. in sch.. outside sch.. at home.. or watever.. i've seen alot n learn alot from all these.. learnt about the cruelty of humanity n reality.. a person can say something to u.. n the next moment.. they become a changed person.. saying a diff thing.. tat's scary.. i learnt to treasure my closed ones.. coz we never noe when we will end up losing them.. learnt to let go.. let go of wat's meant to be let go.. learnt to prioritise my stuff..
sometimes i get very tired.. lost my sense of direction.. nobody 2 consult.. but life still goes on.. juz force a smile.. n move on.. tat's my way of life.. duno if its gd or bad.. but well.. wat i think is.. if there's a will.. there's a way.. no matter wat.. life still got 2 go on.. though its not smooth sailing.. but maybe these are the kind of challenges that god makes everybody go thru.. so tat we can learn n grow up.. hehe maybe after saying so much.. nobody understand wat im toking abt.. haha.. its ok.. this blog is meant to be a diary anyway.. hehe.. best wishes to all.. stay happy always!! =p
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