i noe its late.. haa.. but i juz cant get 2 slp until im blogged abt wat happened to me today.. yes!.. a miracle has indeed fall upon me.. i've experienced something.. something i've never experienced before.. something i noe.. will change my life... frm this very day onwards... yesh!.. n Praise the Lord!!.. =)


everything started since dunno when.. when i started 2 attend service.. well.. it has always been a wish of mine to attend service.. though i have been quite hesitant @ the beginning due to some reasons.. hmm but now.. i've been attending service for at least 4 consecutive weeks.. n the feeling juz gets stronger each time.. which is a good news.. hee.. each week.. i learn something new.. the Word is always so strong.. it will stay with me.. n remind me.. of the real purpose in life.. n everytime i think of something... the Word would juz ring in my head.. reminding me.. telling me wat to do... telling me not 2 be afraid.. telling me to stay focus.. telling me to learn to love myself for who i am.. n put my faith n trust wholeheartedly onto HIM.. n all things will be possible.. Yes!.. n so it shall be.. Amen!..


today... i attended service again.. where the guest speaker Dr Joyce Meyer shared the Word.. which is so powerful.. n throughout the session.. my heart was yelling "Yes!".. haa.. coz everything she said was juz so "Yes!.. Tat's exactly wat it is!" (can't find a better way to explain it..).. haa.. yeap.. it's all about learning to love yourself for who you r.. never try to be like somebody.. dun change yourself juz to be like somebody... accept yourself as who you r... n love yourself for being who you really are.. coz tat's the way God intended you to be!!.. n tat's the best that you can be.. n nobody can ever replace the fact that.. you are juz so beautiful being yourself.. yeah.. it's juz so powerful tat it totally touches my heart.. hmm some ppl might call this "brain-washing".. well i can tell u.. coz these ppl dun understand... till 1 day.. u feel it.. you will totally understand how i felt.. hee..


well.. at the end of her speech.. as usual.. she was preaching.. for salvation.. ppl who are willing to receive salvation were asked to move up to the front.. this time round.. i din go again... cant explain my hesitance... though deep inside.. my heart is yelling & screaming "yes!.. i'm willing to open up my heart!".. but physcially im stuck there in my seat.. feeling guilty & a sense of emptyness overwhelmed me.. but as i closed my eyes n said the prayer.. the sense of presence suddenly became so strong... n den came the amazing part... i suddenly visualized... this very gentle looking guy.. dressed in white (juz how he would look like in those pictures we always see).. looking down at this little ger... smiling... den giving her a warm hug... n i heard a warm.. gentle.. soft voice saying... "It's ok.. I understand.." though his lips din even move a single bit... but i felt it... it's frm HIM!!... n it was den tat i realise... tat ger.. was ME!!!... omg... i cant believe my eyes.. my eyes remained closed.. n tat image stayed there!!.. n i felt this great sense of love... n it's overflowing!.. n yes!.. HE understands!!... OMG!!... HE DID!!.. n im so touched & grateful of tat!.. the pressure was so strong.. images starting flashing in my mind.. how He suffered.. the things he had gone thru for us.. n den i juz cant control myself.. n tears juz rushed out all of a suddenly.. n before i knew it.. my whole face is wet.. n tears juz kept streaming down my cheeks.. nonstop.. though i tried very hard to control..haa... but after tat... i felt a sense of peace... n even until now... tat image is still vivid in my mind.. hmm i duno if tat was juz my imagination... n tat i've pictured it all out.. coz at tat pt.. tat's how i hope it would be.. but.. hmm.. maybe its really wat He's trying to tell me... n yes.. I thx Him for tat..


after tat.. we went to the airport for dinner.. i got this call frm a fren.. n i was quite sad after tat.. haiz disappointed.. sometimes its really better not to noe something.. so u wun feel sad.. haha.. anyway.. yeap.. was affected by tat for a while.. but when the discipleship started.. i started to focus.. n forgotten abt wat happen.. hmm.. i received their blessing.. hee.. yes.. i received & accepted watever was given to me yesterday.. so thankful & grateful of everything.. tried speaking in tongue.. which gave me a stronger sense of belonging.. the bond.. tat's getting stronger.. hee.. though i still cant really do it yet.. but i'll keep trying.. hee.. the feeling's juz great!.. yesterday is such a breakthru for me.. my heart overwhelmed with emotions i cant explain.. n it juz feels so nice.. =).. anyway.. the session was good.. n yes.. life will never be the same for me again!!.. n i thx every single 1 of them..


when i got home.. was telling my sis abt wat happened.. n the passion juz got stronger.. yes.. i muz go by faith.. i really hope i'll follow my own word.. hee.. we've got 2 work harder.. to overcome watever obstacle we are facing now.. one day.. wat we visualized.. the outcome tat we've wished for.. will come to parse.. becoz.. we've asked.. n we've seeked.. as long as we continue to do so... i believe.. miracles do happen.. coz everything is possible!.. yeah!.. jia you!..


hmmm some ppl might not understand wat im toking abt.. maybe some ppl might not believe wat i juz said.. some might think i juz went thru a "brain-washing" session.. haa.. n i wun be surprise if some ppl will say i've been possessed or think im crazy or something.. haha.. but well.. it doesn't matter.. its juz something i've experienced myself.. n i noe how its like.. n yes.. im glad.. really glad.. tat happened!.. miracles!!... but im sure.. some ppl do understand wat im toking abt.. n would have shared the same joy as me.. haha.. hmm the feeling is juz so hard to explain.. in fact words juz cant express tat kind of feeling... u juz got 2 experience it for yourself.. n u will noe wat i mean... i really hope 1 day.. all the ppl ard me will understand wat im toking abt.. n agree with me.. n support my decision.. yes!.. i need tat support.. coz it hurts when ppl ard you do not support you n disagree with wat you are doing... n it would be better if everybody ard me were to be saved.. like me.. haa.. when tat day come.. i noe.. i will be really blessed.. n all the ppl ard me will be blessed too!.. hmm but yea.. like wat they said.. with faith... n trust.. all things are possible... yea!.. haha.. so.. let the Word spread ard.. reach out!.. feel the presence... experience for yourself... the miracle.. tat is abt to take place...!.. embark on a remarkable journey.. with HIM!.. Amen!!..
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