i juz wanna be transparent.. i juz wanna be me.. i juz wanna say.. "我真的好累!"

many times i ask God.. why?? why does it always has to be me??.. why are things so simple for some ppl.. but why its so tough for me??.. why must i go through all these??.. all the struggles.. all the pain.. all the doubts and uncertainties.. frm the beginning until now.. when can i truly breakthru from all these nonsense???..

i know all the ans to these qns.. yes i know.. but im a human too.. can i just behave like 1 for a while??..

countless times.. i just feel like throwing in the towel.. hide inside my shell and tat's it.. hoping that the skies will clear one day.. but they never did.. cried umpteen times.. but what's the pt..

i guess its high time to stop indulging in self-pity.... its comforting just to know.. that someone.. is always there.. and there's always a greater purpose behind all these..

like i said.. i know the reason behind all these.. i juz wanna vent my frustration.. and now that im done.. i'll just have to keep pressing on.. and look forward to my breakthru that's about to come..
*//W|sHeD uPoN @ sTaR//* | 1:01 AM